English CPT

              Emptiness, sad, and heartbroken. That is how I felt when the day happened of my Nonno’s passing. I always talked to God and asked him why did it have to be my grandfather? Why did he have to make the most selfless, kind, warm hearted person sick and die? This is how Hamlet felt when Ophelia committed suicide. This whole time Hamlet thought Ophelia was happy and that his appearance had always brightened up her day, but it did not. For my Nonno, he was in a different situation where he could not control the disease, and that made me feel useless because I could not do anything to help him in any way. If only Hamlet knew that Ophelia wanted to commit suicide, Hamlet would have helped her because deep down Hamlet loves Ophelia and always wanted the best for her. When Ophelia died, it was too late for Hamlet to tell Ophelia that he loved her, and he regretted that so much because now she is gone. For my Nonno, he was like a second father to me, so he knew that I loved him with all my heart. But I do regret not saying or telling my Nonno that I love him often, even when it was the good days when he was not sick. Now, I cannot say I love you to my Nonno because he is gone, and I regret not saying I love you to him every single day since his passing. Everytime I go to visit my Nonno at the cemetery talking to my Nonno is very different than it was talking to him in person. But I do believe that my Nonno is listening to me when I visit him and I know that he is watching over my family and I. Hamlet believed in the cycle of life and death and that in the end everyone has to die, and my Nonno also believed in that. He knew even with his disease that he was not going to live any longer and that his time was coming to an end. What Hamlet and I both learned and have the same perspective on is to never take anyone for granted because once they’re gone, they will never come back.